Date: 12/14/2008 07:54 PM Title: The Boy Who Lives
This story is very powerful. This story stuck with me months after i read it, it was so beautifully written and tragic. And it's an AU that actually makes sense! Great work, this story really gets to your heart.
Date: 03/12/2008 03:13 PM Title: The Boy Who Lives
What a bleak, relentless, and memorable path down Harry's alternate choice. I do feel so much for him, though, in that in the way you've written the beginning, I don't believe that he really knew the full ramifications of the choice that he'd made... oddly enough, even though the end of this shows him just how impossible it is for him to die, I sense hope for him. Perhaps he goes mad, but perhaps he finds solace with other immortals or nearly so...
Very well-written AU. I appreciate your writing style, and how matter-of-fact this is presented, which makes it all the more unforgiving and tragic.
I really don't think Harry knew what he was getting in for, either. And Dumbledore was always one to keep his cards close to his chest, and rely on Harry's fatalistic sense of nobility to Do The Right Thing (think The Forest Again, in particular).
I'm glad you see that hope is possible. It's the lowest point in his life, and I can see many, many possibilities spreading out from that last moment. Madness is very possible, maybe even probable, at least for a time. He's been half-mad since fairly early on, around the time his marriage to Ginny dissolved. But there is the hope that one day, if he recovers, he'd discover again the fragile peace he found studying in the library at Hogwarts.
I really wanted the language for this to be sparse and impartial, and the scenes fragmented. I felt it was more powerful that way, than a continuous narritive could possibly have been. When twenty years go by without warning in under five hundred words, the reader feels the jarring of the passage of time as abruptly as Harry does.
Date: 03/03/2008 10:40 PM Title: The Boy Who Lives
I actually followed a link to your story on your lj and found it beautifully written. I didn't realize you posted your stories here as well. This was so dark and spare, and I felt for Harry every second. I am slightly amazed how little the fanfics written post-DH have dealt with Harry's return from death in any kind of meaningful way. It's such a rich subject to explore. Thanks so much for giving us a look at the possible repercussions of Harry's return from the afterlife.
Thank you! Posting my stories here is a fairly recent thing, which is why so few of them are up here.
Yes, the writing style for this is very spare, very different in a lot of ways to the style I usually write in. The idea just called to be written in that way. If I'd tried to write twenty years of Harry living in the forest and at Hogwarts, it just wouldn't have worked. I had to pick out key moments, pivotal points, and illuminate them. Because he was his own so much of the time, dialogue wasn't an issue, and I think in a way it heightens the fleeting nature of time. For Harry, seasons are just flicking past without discernable change, while his peers are growing into middle age, getting married, having children.
I don't know why this idea hit me so strongly, but it did, and of all the odd times, as I was falling asleep. When I woke, it was still there and demanding to be written, so I did. It's probably one of the pieces I'm most satisfied with out of all the things I've written since starting to write again six months ago.
Date: 01/27/2008 09:37 AM Title: The Boy Who Lives
and ... well i actually really enjoyed it - big barrel of angsty awesomeness.
I do love my angst! Most of the time I tend towards melancholy and grief than outright despair though.
I knew from very early on this piece was going to end like this, though. Bits in the middle developed as I went along (like the whole pivotal interaction with Neville), but the image of the Veil being closed to him was very clear to me, more or less from the beginning.
Thank you for reading!
Date: 01/27/2008 06:27 AM Title: The Boy Who Lives
Wow. that was great. Will there be a second chapter?
I don't think I will, because I'd be too tempted to make it happy, and I feel it's more powerful this way.
I like leaving it open, so the reader can decide whether Harry comes out the other side reconciled to his fate, whether he decends into complete insanity, whether he ever reconnects with those around him or whether he deems it far too painful and retreats completely. All these options and more would be believeable and plausable.